I always watch for 11:11 but I miss it more often then not. I live in the past in the memories I have with the people I love. I hate thinking about reality. It really is hard for me to define myself. I spend alot of time missing the things I cant get back. Im the cliche girl who loved too hard chose the one who wouldn't even give me a second thought. and got nothing in return. But im not going to go on about all the things that are wrong with meI make more mistakes then I know what to do with but I lost the instructions to my life so heres the rest of the deal. I guess you could say that im a little out there. I'll do whatever it takes to make someone laugh. I love being silly so I guess it works to my advantage that I just dont care what most people think. [[and]] I guess there are alot of people out there that think they have it all figured out. But I don't and I know it will take me my whole life to get there cause everyday is something new. When things aren't going right I live the books I read. Sometimes when im feeling like a rebel ill drive around the block without a seatbelt. [[ ive spent enough of my life caring about what everyone thinks. Now its just all about what feels right at the time. Maybe its a mistake but maybe its right I'll take that risk.]] I love music. all kinds. whatever sounds good at the time. I have a few people that mean the world to me and its taken me this long to find them. [[ ill always bridge the lifestyles and geography between to keep it that way.]] these things aint easy and i knew they'd never be. but i always thought there was a fire deep inside of me. and as long as i keep trying the flame will never die. life is a gamble just a roll of the dice.