Times they are changing so fast for me. I thought it would take me forever to find someone special, but in the end the grooviest girlie ever just happened to fall into my lap by chance. Its been so long since I had a happy functioning relationship that at times I don't really know how to handle it. I love how she always wants to hold my hand. I love the way she looks at me. I never want to go back to the misery that my marriage brought me.

I still believe science is the only truth, but i have found my faith in Taoism. At first I felt I could not be an atheist and a Taoist, but after truly studying the literature I feel that a Taoist must be an atheist. Several times it alludes to there being nothing after death.I am on a quest to learn more about myself. I no longer feel the need to interfere in the ways of babylon. I think that our world is evil, and that without rapid change we are headed to our own destruction.

I am blessed with myriad friends who love me and have been supporting me through this difficult chapter of my life. To all of them I am very grateful. To those who didn't make the cut then that's just too bad. If I spend half as much time looking backwards as I did the last time I was in this much pain then I will have been twice as successful handling it. So far so good. There is no shittier feeling than someone you have pledged to spend eternity with telling you that they have just given up. Love is supposed to conquer all. When it doesn't it just goes to show I was not ever loved. Wasting your time like that is a terrible feeling.