They really hate that I've decided to continue "being" Sabrina Sparx. The truth is, in many ways I am more her than I am anyone else. I'm not sorry for the choices I've made. I made them because I wanted to. Because they felt right. The only regret I have is that I've let too much get in the way of me doing what I could have/should have been doing with my life. I wish they could understand that I'm proud of who I've become. If I could go back I wouldn't do it differently...maybe better but still the same. In so many ways I'm such a normal girl. I'm confident but humble. I'm thankful for the compliments I receive. I answer practically every message I receive. Its the fans that "make me". I love knowing that the work I've done made an impact. I do what I do because I love it. The fact that my work is appreciated makes it that much more worthwhile. I love your feedback, suggestions, opinions, ect. My own site is something I've been wanting to start... I'm hoping before the fall I'll have it up. We'll see what happens.

Things are finally looking up. I was in LA for a week shooting everyday. I got to see my bff. It felt good to get away. I came home and quit my day job. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Haven't been doing much at all. Danced like 2 nights. I also have a new bf. It all happened so quick. We just clicked and that was it. He's great. Now I just wonder where I am supposed to go next. I guess time will tell. I've felt like an unpaid escort for the past two months...taken out to dinner, fucked, and sent home. I decided that I longer wanna play this stupid game. I feel stupid enough for playing this long. I guess I had hopes of starting over, feeling the excitement of something new...I'm a hopeless romantic. I wanna be in love and more importantly be loved back. I miss the way it feels- the rush you feel when you're with that person...I feel like I'm never gonna have that again. Been wasting my time. I guess I really shouldn't be focusing on this too much. I have a lot going on.