i am what most of you would call a hermit, and i dont really care to be honest. i am very particular about the people i chose to surround myself with, if any at all. ive stopped talking to alot of good friends recently to avoid getting back into old routines, i dont like to admit it but i dont have as much will as i would like. so i stay at home, work or with people who know i have quit certain things, making it easier for me to avoid the temptation lol. im flawed to no-end, bipolar to say the least, yet im happy. washington will forever be my home, the only true beauty i have ever seen was in nature and winter is my favorite season. i have a deep distaste for life most of the time and really dont see the point in much of anything, i dont really agree with society and i believe humanity is the only true disease on this planet. say what you want about me, behind my back or even to me but i really dont care, its the opinions of the people i love that matter. im noone special, im not above you, im just another human here to spend what time i have left on this decaying planet. banana[you know who you are]we used to spend every waking moment together, and even most of our sleeping ones too lol or friendship was borderline obsessive yet you, still to this day, are the only person i can truly never get sick of. you were there for me through so much and i for you not as much as i shouldve been and i regret that, god i just wish we couldve saw where we were going, and fixed it before it happened, i feel so helpless without you around, kindof empty too. there were hardly any bad times in the past four years we got along better than most families even do, (even if the things we were doing werent really the best of choices) and went through some shit that people our age shouldnt have lol.