i wouldn't be the person that i am, wouldn't be the person that people know me as. dealing with what i've dealt with, feeling with all that i've felt, it's taught me. i've seen the flaws, i've seen the perfections. i've seen the beauty of life. life is a beautiful thing that should be cherished by all. it is fragile and full of ups and downs, full of experiences you wish you didn't have to have, full of pains and pleasures. all of which must be experienced. people who choose to end their lives are selfish, truly. taking your life or the life of another is the absolute most selfish thing anyone could ever do. i used to cut myself, i used to hate my life, i used to wish i could just die. i used to cry myself to sleep at night and i've been so close to ending my life. i used to starve myself, i used to scarf and barf, i've smoked, i've drank, i've almost thrown myself and my morals away. i regret these actions, i know they are mistakes, yet they were necessary for me. they made me grow, they taught me, my scars are constant reminders. reminders to cherish what i have, to appreciate everything i've been given. i don't drink now, no alcohol, never. i haven't had a single drop of alcohol since october 2006. i've never been drunk, never been buzzed, and i don't plan on ever experiencing that. i don't smoke anything anymore, no weed, no cigarettes, nothing. my lungs are too important and i breathe in enough pollutants with every breath i take. i don't have sex, it's not necessary for me, i don't have to, i won't do it, nobody can force me into it, too many close calls with people who never mattered, never will matter, and never could have mattered. so yes, i am straight edge, accept me as i am, it's just me. i'm far from vegan, i favor beef over everything, i love steak. i love pork, it's yummie, i love bacon, i love ham. i love chicken, it's delish. i pretty much just love eating animals.