I have a conflicting personality. I crave to be independent but I desire nothing else except acceptance and companionship. I'm strong minded but weak willed.I'm carefree and suffer from anxiety. I always look at the bright side when I'm undergoing a streak of depression. I love music. Concerts are a favorite past time.I over think things, so when I'm not around people I think and think and think myself in circles until my brain is out of breath and is coughing up blood.I am also socially dependent... Don't get me wrong, I hate people, I hate the bullshit, and I hate the drama, it drives me crazy. But people keep me sane by making me feel insane. I don't wear a social mask, I actually care more about you then you think, and I wear my emotions on my sleeve. I give more advice then I take. I don't think I'm wise, but for my age think I'm pretty mature. I've done enough in the past year or two to be proud of myself in my mistakes and my growth. I've been up against more trials and challenges then I have ever thought existed outside of movies. I've learned not to make a desperate act in a moment of passion, that 9/10 the situation is exactly how it seems, that no matter how bad things seem it can get worse, and in your lowest point is the only time you're going to really discover how beautiful it is to be alive. I've learned that your intuition is always right, and beyond it all you are all you need. I've wasted too much emotional, physical,and mental energy on battles that weren't worth it. It's a cliche thing to say, but this year I've gone thinking that I could trust a lot of people, and it turned out they would never have my back compared to how i would take a bullet for them.