The horror hasn't ended yet. I no longer have to worry about my dad, but that hasn't stopped me from staying up at night. The hell is still going. This whole family I live in is forever tramatizingly dramatic.

Living in fear and worry is a horrible way to live. I'm waiting to turn 19. I'll be working my hardest to get out of here. To live a happy life. Hopefully with my love, my angel, my strength, my happiness, Andrew. And maybe I'll finally get some good friends. I miss my friends... I moved to Napa about 2 years ago. I was living in Vacaville. That's home to me. I lived there for about 10 years I think it was. And now this Napa place... well... there's some pretty cool people I guess. They're extremely hard to find though. I'm also in Independent Studies. It's like Homeschooling for those of you who don't know. I hated High School so I left. Well that's all I have to say now. So if you wanna know more about my life or what it's been like then please ask me.

Now I guess I'll write about things I like and things I don't and just my personailty I guess, things like that. Well, for the most part I'm a pretty laid back person. Don't bother inviting me to a party. I'll find some excuse not to go. I hate big crowds. I'm not completely anit-social. I'm not one of those kids who stands in the corner waiting for someone to notice them. If I'm around alot of people I talk, I'd just rather not be there lol. A lot of you like to ask what I like to do. And the honest to god answer is read, write, and hang out with a friend or 2 every once in a while. I HATE sports. So don't even ask about any of that. But yes, I do read and write for FUN. I enjoy it. I really hope to be a writer someday.Another thing I've always seemed to wanna be is a model. Now alot of you tell me that I SHOULD be a model. For like a gothic magazine or something. Well, trust me, I've thought about it many of time. But I'm afraid I'm just too short.